Or just crazy. I am. Full-on self-admitted insane and I feel a LOT better since I admitted it. That AA program with the first step being admission – it works. I could see the fact that I am insane as a problem, a rather unnecessary inconvenience to have to overcome in life – which is quite honestly how I did see it until recently.
Events in my life over the past year have taught me to accept my insanity and just go with it. Many people have told me the things I do are wrong, or there is a better way or I shouldn’t even try it but I just say ‘Hey, I’m insane, lets try it my way just for kicks!’ Most people I have found are cool with that as long as they know you are not only insane but you are also a caring person.
Insanity and concern for humanity happen to be two very desirable qualities because our current approach hasn’t really worked out that well for all involved… some insanity is long overdue. I’m ready to share. 🙂
This is the fist verse to a song I wrote a while back…
Be a good consumer
Don’t you waste our time
You’re not watching tv
You’re not staying in line
Hey you are you listening
We are talking to you
You should have two kids now
Aren’t you 32?
Be a good CONsumer
Be a good consumer
Be a good CONsumer
Dear Mother Passed,
The scent of your hair and your perfume. The comfort of my head against your breast. The deliciousness of your baking. The adventures in the tiny car. Velveeta sandwiches. Your cheers at my contests of speed. Your untamable spirit. The creativity of your soul. Your love of books and music. Tchaikovsky shaking the foundation of our house. Drive in movies and ice cream. Your laugh. Your strength. Your love.
You will always be in my heart, my mind, my soul. Thank you for me.
I went to San Francisco a few weeks ago. I bought a pair of pretty expensive headphones at the Apple Store. I used those headphones to listen to Tchaikovsky in the park across from the SFMOMA to celebrate my mother’s birthday – she died when I was 13. I am 41. I can’t be bothered to do the math.
I left those headphones in a restaurant. Today I got them back. I have them attached to my ears right now. They rock. The people that found them and sent them back to me rock. This blog post is a shout out to that restaurant…First Crush in San Francisco and specifically to Judy McGrath…who runs the place and had a computer breakdown and still managed to get my headphones out to me.
Also…the food was fantastic!
Cheers to Judy!
I came up with a fantastic way to make yourself feel better when you are upset.
- Create a new email address somewhere and give it the name of someone you can talk to completely freely, real or imaginary.
- Create a new email to that address and title it whatever you want.
- Say whatever you want.
- Send it.
Feel better? Thought so.
I find it rather annoying in todays society that we don’t want people to share their problems with us. It really bothers me. In fact, I have a problem with it and I’m going to talk about it. Why do we need to be so cold and uncaring? We are all human and we all have very similar problems – so why can’t we just be open about it and take care of each other? I really want to know. Why? Really. I do.
We are all smiles and ‘have a nice day’ on the outside but inside we are dying from the pressure of caring for our elderly parents, our relative dying from cancer, the well being of our children…yet we take an ‘every man for himself’ philosophy. Its a bit disgusting if you think about it. I don’t know what else to say. Words escape me.
I think we should change it.
Next week we hope to sign the lease and purchase agreement upon which instance we will officially be owners of a cafe in Seattle. Awesome!
The goal of the cafe will be goodness. The cafe is really important to this neighborhood. There is a lot of newness coming to this area. It is situated right in the middle of the renewal and is still shouting OLD OLD!! I live around the corner from the cafe, so I have first hand knowledge. There is a lot of change coming to our little wedge between Fremont and Wallingford. Its all really exciting and cool but sometimes we have a bit of concern about the old and what will become of it, because we like it.
KAPOW!!! Tiny Ninja to the scene.